When you care about somebody, and I mean REALLY care about somebody, you wouldn't do anything to hurt them. Ever. But then they hurt you, and the dynamic of your relationship changes dramatically. You see the light. You realize what said person's real intentions were, you see the mind games, and you see that the entire time they were really just toying with you because they have an apparent sick, desperate need for attention. Clearly this has nothing to do with me.
So then you're broken. You cry daily because of said awesome person. You try to fight to get things back to normal. You know they played you. You know they obviously never actually cared about you. Yet you miss them. Yet you still would rather have an unhealthy relationship with someone that's just toying with you, than to have nothing with them at all. What is WRONG with you?
After your useless efforts at trying and fighting, you finally feel defeated. Exhausted. Hurt. Done trying. They won.
Say you have the power to ruin their life. You could, in theory, destroy them. They hurt you, so why shouldn't you hurt them? But no. You are the bigger person here. You still care. You are just too soft hearted and emotionally involved to ever turn on them like they turned on you.
Where to go from here?
Oh, no, this isn't about me. This is about you.
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